I guess it is never too late to have a 1st time as a mommy to break down and cry because your child is upset you are leaving him/her. Well, my first time actually happened this morning. I have never been a mother that got upset that their child cried a little because they were being left because I knew as soon as I walked away they were fine. This morning CBS (Community Bible Study) started back up which I was really stoked about because I love, love, love my time spent there and getting to know many other wonderful Christian women...but after taking my little one, Steven who is 1 to his class this am my morning took a bit of a turn. My experience with his class last year was a bit different to say the least. This morning I walk into about 7 other 1 year olds screaming and crying because they have also been left somewhere unknown to them. :( Steven who is generally not a big crier and may cry for only a moment when I leave was very unsettled by this as I was too. I actually had to step out of the room with him and I am sure my poor son felt my uneasiness as I broke down in tears in front of him. My flight instincts were kicking in and I really, REALLY was just about to leave with him. I have never encountered anything like this before. Maybe it was just me not handling it well this morning but, I didn't leave with him and I finally put him back in the room with a number of sweet women to take care of him and he proceeded to throw probably the biggest fit I have ever seen him throw. Head hit the floor, red face, kicking and screaming...I just had to leave (crying my eyes out) and let one of the ladies take care of it. So I spent the next 2 hours with my stomach in knots feeling like I had just put my child through something just awful. When the lecture was over I rushed back to my sweet little one and of course he was perfectly fine playing with a smile on his face. So, why was I worrying so much I ask myself?! Over protective mommy or maybe just crazy...lol! Anyway, next week I will have on my stronger mommy armor. :) I will just have to pray everyone gets use to getting dropped off... FAST!
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